Saturday, December 31, 2011
my 2011.
i didnt get into my fitness regime - getting fat instead.
i didnt save a whole load of money - at least i'm not in debt.
i didnts vs i dids.
1) 35000 feet.
i'm still at it. I thank God for blessing me to be in something which i enjoy and never will regret. blessings. i couldnt have done it without God, people should know the challenges and struggles i had.
and 2011, IFT - a big step, and so far so good, i'm enjoying the position. i know i said 2 years, but now, i don't know how many.
my Good friday tour - PER
i went to Rotorua - AKL
mission bay - AKL
IFT training - BKK
my first training - MEL
handpicked for the first PEK - SIN flight
Great Wall - PEK
forbidden city - PEK
Dinner & Dance 2011 - SIN
and because of these blessing, i found...
2) a gem.
i thought that would be my happily ever after. someone who shares the same belief and goes to the same church, a big bf 周's fan, same industry. same yet so different. my own insecurities killed the r/s, the way he dealt with it after ended up in a big mess. awkward mess.
his friends mocked at me, my girlfriends bitched abt him.
that was from his twitter and that was and will be the last (I PROMISE) that i ever read any of his stuff.
mentioning to the whole world that he doesnt want to see me on his flt. i'm hurt. it seems like, i was wrong to fall in love, with him. i couldnt swap away that flt because i was having training, if he didnt want to see me, he could have swap that flt away. he didnt. so what now? should i swap away future flts with him so that i dont have to hear and/or see things like that? or should i just go ahead for flt and make myself a bitch?
if he doesnt want to see me on flt, i rather he tell me.
trust me, i was that close to ask him abt his tweets. really close. but i held my tongue, i dont know if i should be glad that i didnt. because it might make things worst but the lingering thoughts.... *pouts*
love, detest.
thanks but no thanks.
God has his plans, and to be totally honest, i lost faith (in a way) in love.
until the genuine God sent comes along, i believe, i will still be, the singular Angela.
i dont know if he or his friends still read my blog, but i reckon, e content will spread one way or another. i hope the awkwardness will go away and we can still be friends.
忘，因为（你）已经是过去式
一定要幸福，虽然我曾经希望能给你幸福的是我
=)
and because of this gem, i found more love from...
3) girlfriends, girl-leagues - my angels
bestie (who recently got engaged) - one of the random lunch date.
dar - in TPE for my birthday
eve - at zoukout
POEPS - at house
(wifey, maddie, kathleen, joy, yasi, ali - they get alot more shit because they are all on my twitter *OPPS*)
the jetters aka girl-leagues
(Adrina, Ash, Joleen, Rhi)
he mentioned before that i placed my angels above him, and i would prob save them first if both parties are drowning.
yes and no.
yes i would save them first.
no i suck at swimming.
every troubles and down time in life, i know i can always fall back into their comfort, their friendship. they mean so much to be because i know no matter how wreck i am, they wouldnt turn around and walk away. they stay, whether or not they can provide any help - they stay.
they dont leave me stranded and wounded. they gave me the most support in all situations. they dont spoil me silly, they wont hesitate to chide me when i'm being a bitch - that's what friends are for.
dont hate my friends for being bitchy (especially with the dramas) because i would have done the same.
it's hard to express my love for them. with them i know i dont have to explain the rumors, because they know me well enough to ignore the nonsense. with them, i know i dont have to speak up for myself, they are willing to do it for me anytime to anyone, anywhere.
with them, i know i'm not alone, will never be alone.
and with them 我可以没有爱情，but 不可以没有她们
maybe, i dont need a guy at all - yes.
because i have seen guys who walk in and walk out of my life even faster than saying 'i love you' my girlfriends? they make an effort to stay, once they decided to walk in.
sometimes i feel that i'm not good enough to deserve these angels - thank you for every effort, thank you, thank you, thank you.
4) my famies (no, they are never the last on my priority list)
mummy is still recovering, God is always walking with the family. mummy is into yoga, karaoke-ing, dancing - she's even busier than me! but whenever i'm home, she tries to make yummy soup (because i'm a sucker for soup) and whatever i've craving for.
daddy, everyone knows he's my knight in shiny armor. no matter how late i reach home and how tired he is, he makes sure that i've my meals. he comes home from work tired but still help me with the luggage to cab. i know he always wanted me to stop flying because he feels that it's too hard on me and he would really love to spend more time with me.
the sister. i prob spend more time in my own bed then see her (because she's one workaholic, imagine going back to work a day after your wisdom tooth surgery, with a swollen face) that's my sister. someone who will always be there if i need anything, someone whom i can ran to every time.
--
2012.
saving is a must
staying in shape is another.
able to find my man would be a bonus.
quoting from a colleague "i dont want to find a bf, i want to find a husband"
2012.
blessed and be blessed.
AMEN.
--
p/s: this is a post-dated entry (as usual) because from the looks of it i'm up there somewhere at 12mids.
and this, will be my very last post.
decided against to say 'follow me' on tumblr, i'm loving the me-myself-and-my-friends space there.
Happy New Year.
Happy 2012.
i didnt get into my fitness regime - getting fat instead.
i didnt save a whole load of money - at least i'm not in debt.
i didnts vs i dids.
1) 35000 feet.
i'm still at it. I thank God for blessing me to be in something which i enjoy and never will regret. blessings. i couldnt have done it without God, people should know the challenges and struggles i had.
and 2011, IFT - a big step, and so far so good, i'm enjoying the position. i know i said 2 years, but now, i don't know how many.
my Good friday tour - PER
i went to Rotorua - AKL
mission bay - AKL
IFT training - BKK
my first training - MEL
handpicked for the first PEK - SIN flight
Great Wall - PEK
forbidden city - PEK
Dinner & Dance 2011 - SIN
and because of these blessing, i found...
2) a gem.
i thought that would be my happily ever after. someone who shares the same belief and goes to the same church, a big bf 周's fan, same industry. same yet so different. my own insecurities killed the r/s, the way he dealt with it after ended up in a big mess. awkward mess.
his friends mocked at me, my girlfriends bitched abt him.
that was from his twitter and that was and will be the last (I PROMISE) that i ever read any of his stuff.
mentioning to the whole world that he doesnt want to see me on his flt. i'm hurt. it seems like, i was wrong to fall in love, with him. i couldnt swap away that flt because i was having training, if he didnt want to see me, he could have swap that flt away. he didnt. so what now? should i swap away future flts with him so that i dont have to hear and/or see things like that? or should i just go ahead for flt and make myself a bitch?
if he doesnt want to see me on flt, i rather he tell me.
trust me, i was that close to ask him abt his tweets. really close. but i held my tongue, i dont know if i should be glad that i didnt. because it might make things worst but the lingering thoughts.... *pouts*
love, detest.
thanks but no thanks.
God has his plans, and to be totally honest, i lost faith (in a way) in love.
until the genuine God sent comes along, i believe, i will still be, the singular Angela.
i dont know if he or his friends still read my blog, but i reckon, e content will spread one way or another. i hope the awkwardness will go away and we can still be friends.
忘，因为（你）已经是过去式
一定要幸福，虽然我曾经希望能给你幸福的是我
=)
and because of this gem, i found more love from...
3) girlfriends, girl-leagues - my angels
bestie (who recently got engaged) - one of the random lunch date.
dar - in TPE for my birthday
eve - at zoukout
POEPS - at house
(wifey, maddie, kathleen, joy, yasi, ali - they get alot more shit because they are all on my twitter *OPPS*)
the jetters aka girl-leagues
(Adrina, Ash, Joleen, Rhi)
he mentioned before that i placed my angels above him, and i would prob save them first if both parties are drowning.
yes and no.
yes i would save them first.
no i suck at swimming.
every troubles and down time in life, i know i can always fall back into their comfort, their friendship. they mean so much to be because i know no matter how wreck i am, they wouldnt turn around and walk away. they stay, whether or not they can provide any help - they stay.
they dont leave me stranded and wounded. they gave me the most support in all situations. they dont spoil me silly, they wont hesitate to chide me when i'm being a bitch - that's what friends are for.
dont hate my friends for being bitchy (especially with the dramas) because i would have done the same.
it's hard to express my love for them. with them i know i dont have to explain the rumors, because they know me well enough to ignore the nonsense. with them, i know i dont have to speak up for myself, they are willing to do it for me anytime to anyone, anywhere.
with them, i know i'm not alone, will never be alone.
and with them 我可以没有爱情，but 不可以没有她们
maybe, i dont need a guy at all - yes.
because i have seen guys who walk in and walk out of my life even faster than saying 'i love you' my girlfriends? they make an effort to stay, once they decided to walk in.
sometimes i feel that i'm not good enough to deserve these angels - thank you for every effort, thank you, thank you, thank you.
4) my famies (no, they are never the last on my priority list)
mummy is still recovering, God is always walking with the family. mummy is into yoga, karaoke-ing, dancing - she's even busier than me! but whenever i'm home, she tries to make yummy soup (because i'm a sucker for soup) and whatever i've craving for.
daddy, everyone knows he's my knight in shiny armor. no matter how late i reach home and how tired he is, he makes sure that i've my meals. he comes home from work tired but still help me with the luggage to cab. i know he always wanted me to stop flying because he feels that it's too hard on me and he would really love to spend more time with me.
the sister. i prob spend more time in my own bed then see her (because she's one workaholic, imagine going back to work a day after your wisdom tooth surgery, with a swollen face) that's my sister. someone who will always be there if i need anything, someone whom i can ran to every time.
--
2012.
saving is a must
staying in shape is another.
able to find my man would be a bonus.
quoting from a colleague "i dont want to find a bf, i want to find a husband"
2012.
blessed and be blessed.
AMEN.
--
p/s: this is a post-dated entry (as usual) because from the looks of it i'm up there somewhere at 12mids.
and this, will be my very last post.
decided against to say 'follow me' on tumblr, i'm loving the me-myself-and-my-friends space there.
Happy New Year.
Happy 2012.